Life as I see it

Well breaking from working and check this quiz out :Life Rating quiz

This is my result :

Hmm an average score huh

Well what is silahturami in english? Anyway, it’s the second Database laboratory silahturami that I’ve ever attended. Well it will be the last as next year I’m not in here anymore. It’s silly anyway if I reflects back to what i was in last year. When i was in the 3′rd year i was really enthusiastic at that time when i could enter the laboratory. Believing that I could do this and that in this laboratory. It sounds cool man at firstly. But my spirit in here gradually diminish. It’s really sad that after being here for almost two years I only become teaching assitant. And even I don’t take the final project topic here. I feel sorry for  it. Deep in my heart I feel shy to the database laboratory lectures. Although i’ve got chance being here i don’t use it optimally. Well anyway that’s the past and i must move on. Sometimes i feel like i want to go back to the past and believe that if the current/present me came back to the past, i could do everything better. It’s ridiculous though. He3  disatisfaction is consuming me right now.  Well anyway life goes on and so be it …

Hmm starting my first frenster blog. Only blogging once before in blogspot. Well what is I’m feelingnow is this. My mood is so gloomy. Bored by this routine of life. Wanna do sumthin new sumthin fresh sumthin extraordinary. Damn I’m stuck being here. Being in Database laboratory of Informatics Engineering from 10 AM. Wanna meet my final project supervisor but I blow up the chance to meet her just bcoz I haven’t finished my final project document yet. Thanks to Heroes V I become addicted and play up late last night. Now it’s 6PM and today I don’t meet my final project supervisor. That means that I can only meet her on Wednesday which also means my final project presentation is delayed. Hahh what should I do after I finish my study in ITB anyway. My first and foremost wish is that I could get good job with great salary. Damn it I want earn money by myself fast.  A 22 years old me couldn’t earn money up till now But anyway what’s money all bout. Will it make me happier, greddier, healthier or contrary make me slave. I will figure out this question 5 years from now ha3. My parents is not young anymore. At least I want to prove my parents that I can live by myself if I could earn money. Anyone, do u know how to pay ur parents deed. I need this answer fast. I just can only think that if I should earn big money so that I can pay my family expense so my parents can stop working and live happily. But Dhamma lesson that I got said that u can pay ur parents deed if u lead ur parents to dhamma way. I find it hard anyway because i lack of belief. Now I don’t know wat to do. Well where should I go. My head is so heavy by sumthin that is running in my head. I gotta go…